Seriously do you hate me THIS much?

Being a mother is tough, I want the BEST for my children. I will protect them at any costs. I live for them, I would gladly die for them. They are the reason I wake up in the morning. My kids are EVERYTHING to me. EVERYTHING.
How is that not the same for all mothers? Especially MY mother?

I have been wracking my brain and searching for the reason my mother hates me so much. The only thing I have discovered is my mother doesn't JUST hate me, she loathes me. She wants to destroy me.
Why? How does that happen?

I have always been the black sheep of the family. I am the youngest of 3, isn't the baby supposed to be favored? Did she not get the memo? Did she never watch the Brady Bunch when everything that little bratty Cindy did was forgiven and laughed at?
Instead I am more like that little shit cousin Oliver that brought the Brady Bunch down. Poor Oliver, he will always been known as the kid that ruined the Brady Bunch. Am i seriously putting myself in the same category as cousin Oliver? Oh crap is this what depression feels like?

Let's move on before I compare myself to DJ from Roseanne!

My mom is a spoiled child. She throws a tantrum when she doesn't get her way. She also does not like the fact that i am the authority figure when it comes to my 13 year old daughter. Somewhere in my mom s warped mind, she thinks being the Grandmother trumps what I say. But not every Grandmother, just HER. If my husbands mother pulled this shit my mom would have her head on a platter.

My mother is insane. An insane spoiled brat that enjoys torturing me. Not my brother or my sister, just me.

For the last 36 hours, my mom has threatened me my phone, email, and Facebook. It all started because I told my 13 year old daughter that she can't have a computer of her own. This isn't news to Kayla by any means. She had a computer that we took away a year ago because she abused the privilege-sneaking on without permission, chatting on weird forums with odd people etc.

my mom decided she is buying my daughter a computer. I told Kayla no.
She texted my mom on the cell phone that my mom bought her which was also not approved by me. Again Kayla had a cell phone and she abused the privilege. But my mom bought her one anyway. Well the reason for the cell phone is here is so Kayla can text my mom 100x a day and complain about me. And of course my mom then talks shit about me to my daughter. I told Kayla she cant have a computer. She texts my mom,. My mom talks shit. I take the phone away for the night.

My mom is FUMING because I wouldn't allow Kayla to have her own computer, so she starts writing rude things on my facebook wall. Like take care of your kids instead of being on the computer. Why is Kayla NEVER on the computer and you are? bla bla bla

Then my mom found out that I took the cell phone-she loses her mind. Calls my house leaves threatening messages on my phone. Writes on my facebook wall again. Emails me threats to give Kayla's phone back or shes calling CPS and going to the police department to see what they can arrest me on. I delete her from facebook. She then starts sending friend requests to my facebook friends trying to talk shit about me on their walls. Luckily I have stopped that for now.

I got an email from her last night saying I have gone over her deadline she allowed me to give Kayla back the phone. I didn't know there was a deadline, it wouldn't have made any difference but I still didn't know. But now that the deadline has been reached she is going to do EVERYTHING in her power to get me arrested. Including contacting my Uncle who is a retired Chicago police officer to assist her in what charges to falsify.

She called child protective services, they were at my door this morning. I didn't answer it because I was fucking fuming. If they come back tomorrow I will let them in. But today was not a good day for me mentally. I would have gone to jail.
So I am sure they will be my morning wake up call again tomorrow. JOY

I just don't get it. I don't understand when she went insane. I don't know why she feels that since she cant control what happens in my house the only option is to get me arrested and try to get my kids taken away from me. How does this make any sense? How can someone that gave birth to me and raised me, hate me so much?
Hate me so much that her only goal now is to destroy me. How does this happen?

All I can do now is pray.
Pray that my kids will not be effected by her insanity.
Pray that this will all blow over.
Pray that whatever claims she makes against me are not taken seriously.
Pray for my daughter that loves her Grandmother so much and now my mom has forced my hand to cut off all ties with her.
I guess over all pray for my mom.
That some day she can see past her hatred of me long enough to figure out that the only thing she is doing is destroying the relationship that she could have had with my 3 wonderful, beautiful children.
I just don't understand why she hates me SO much.